When you realize.

I find that in closing my eyes and thinking about my life I have made many great realizations in my life.
Some of the most enthralling realizations come with you in mind.


1. The moment I realized I wanted to kiss you.
    You were dropping me off at home, and you wanted to kiss me too. You had taken your seatbelt off, but I was too scared to take that cue.

2. The moment I realized I wanted to be with you.
    It was actually the time you told me I couldn't tell anyone that we were hanging out. I understood why, but knowing I couldn't make things real, made me realize I wanted to be more than just a friend.

3. The moment I realized I loved you.
    On the way back from San Francisco. I wasn't completely sure, but anytime I tried to toss that feeling away, it just came back. By the time you were at my house to drop me off, I knew.

4. The moment I realized I loved you more than anyone I have ever loved before.
    This one was kind of funny to me, simply because I look back and I wonder if I really ever loved any other man. I am always thinking about you, from the moment I wake up and see you until I close my eyes that night.

5. The moment I realized that I didn't want to be with anyone but you.
   At first I wasn't sure how this was all going to work, you have your daughter, and I was scared to settle into any permanent thoughts. I just couldn't help it though, You have changed my life. I never knew that when people say "You have made me a better person" that I would ever know what they have meant by it. I can't imagine myself spending my life with anyone else.

There will be many more of these to come, but I am so happy that I have what I do with you.